by Nuha Ali •
Fears, tears
Cheers and mirrors
Walking on every block, with fears
Hearing people call you names, and holding back your tears
Going back home and seeing yourself in all different mirrors
Asking yourself one thing, “How am I different?”
This blog features new Minnesotans. Many of them participate as part of an English Language Learning class. Nuha Ali is a high school student in the Twin Cities.
Looking from head to toe
Noticing nothing will show
Your body all perfect in cloth
No matter what it cost
Asking yourself one thing, “How am I different?“
Eating all the meals
Saving every deal
Happy to help your mother
And hating to fight with your brother
Locking yourself in your room
Wishing you can hit the world with a broom!
Asking yourself one thing, “How am I different?“
Wake up in the morning
Get dressed all over, like it’s snowing
Packing your books in your bag
And not leaving one paper sag
Rushing out the door
But wanting to stay a little more
Asking yourself one thing, “How am I different?”
Arrive at school on time
Give hugs and buy a drink with ten dimes
Talk to your girls about the weekend
Laugh, write a text and press send
In the class, before the bell rings
Smile and take out your things
Asking yourself one thing, “How am I different?”
Teachers talk and talk,
They will never stop
Writing notes, then you hear a pop!
You turn and see, a boy staring
And think, at me?
You get a chill on your back
But act like this is a fantasy that’s white and black
He turns around, and you finally breathe
You just want to understand why people are so deceived
Asking yourself one thing, “How am I different?”
Your school day is over
Now you know you have to find a lucky Glover
Knowing that you’re going on the blocks all alone
And fearing you might be stolen
Not by money
But by words that don’t sound like honey
Asking yourself one thing, “How am I different?”
Ever car that rolls by
Glares with jumping alibi
But knowing the truth
Even though you need no proof
They hate you, is what you think
You feel heat, and then blink
A tear rolls down your eye
And you always had told yourself not to cry
To keep it all in
And stay strong, not thin
But that moment throw the words away
It left you in a dark, dark, scary day
Where you wished you were back home
Where everyone made you not feel alone
Always by your side
To say, hey I am the same, so don’t hide
It came to be, that it’s your first time, not asking, “How am I different?”
With an extra piece of cloth on your head
Like your hair is a mess when you woke out of bed
But does it matter adding a cloth?
Why don’t they talk about the baseball hat?
Is it because am staying with my religion?
Or is it because they think I have no fashion?
I am all of these in your eyes, but one thing
The truth never lies,
I love my scarf, and my religion
I hope one day you’ll understand
And hold out a hand
You finally see a woman smile
Although she’s driving nine hours per a mile
You smile back
And think; now I can relax
No more fears
No more tears,
Just looking at all the different mirrors